Saturday, January 31, 2015

in the past

i apoligize for my past actions. ease up. judgement is to be ignorant to reality. i regret things ive done and i have forgiven myself. regret standing for reality embodying grandeur relapses enternaly tomorrow.
tomorrow never comes. 
its all the same moment.
today is tomorrows yesterday.
i believe in that. i believe in me.
i believe what i have done in the past i rightfully did with and to the best of my knowledge.
i apply what i learn at my speed.
my pace is unique. 
im on a mega bus.
im an entertainer. & im going to focus on my musical career and let all other aspects of entertainment trinkle into my life.
im a student of life & im going to start school as a hobby: im concentrated on medical: Dr. ???? Si!
im family. im travel. im leisure. 
im listening. im living. im skywalking.
im edgardo f. v.
one day i will choose to be a father under the winter sky while i lay with my lady by my side. i care to be dad and raise my child alone. i will attract the love i deserve into my life all in due time. 
right now that is not a priority.
my priority is to elevate my family, the community & our society!
the game of fhrones is real. im living it.  & im playing the real life version everyday. small circles' close knits' sane partnershipa.
with rants & raves every now & then.
who ever may be reading this just know i write to let my mind flow out the thoughts if has. we are ment to flow and be effortles. my intentions are to be me to the fullest: to live, experince, create & love!

I'm a mutant. & my gift is :
to wield/bring forth into our shared existence/unity reality what i invision with my mind, will & imagination: i meditate
to fortify/re-charge & stay intune with this god:gift.
thank you for the bleasing!
gracias! yo estoy muy agradecido! 
gracias! yo eatoy feliz, contento y viviendo!

Friday, January 30, 2015


im edgardo v. f. aka rex skywalker
christopher f. aka 
christian h. aka
anairamy r. aka
esteban r. aka
sebastian h. aka
brenda y. r. aka
kevin h. aka
eric L. aka
enrique g. aka
sonia h. aka
jonathan h. aka
my cousins honarary skywalkers
my cirlce is small
my reach is omnipresent
my reality is mine to dictate through my beliefs. habits. actions. routines and practices. 
i live by the amenzar code of honors. the way of the skywalker'... with full vigor, vitality & excenfrence. omnievee! to atract sophagias and zodeimsa partners. evsword to remind me of me. i am one with god amd together we create my life experince: i must respect the balance. the gift of life. i must expand and grow! im not like any of my family members and they are not like me. we do not complete each other. and we can all exist independent of each other. we are all kings and queens of out choose  craft hobby and proffesion. we unite to fortify communication and the human evolution! we dreamed big. we know when we are satiafied. we stay humble. we are family before amything. some of us explore some of us root us to our family. some of us go deep inside ourselfs and some go create with there hands. time as riped us and build us back up the way we imagine and allowed ourselves to be. we are learning that we have the power to choose amd dictate our reality. we give our time only to that wiched will uplift us. we invest our time wisely for is the only thing once gone it never comes back....

i think about you still.

its not simple to admit. i was me. and guessing is not an anawear. what was i resisting. i begame. its a twisted perspective. im singled out. im not understanding. i am doing things more for me now choosing more now. you cant  tell but you dont care. im a waitinf room. where are you?
are you sobering up?
are you letting go. giving in. journey within. go deeper jnto the thoughts tou dont believe you can manifest.
i can only give you my ideas and my perapectives and time waits on no man. what am doing with my day to day is what i do with mt day to day. habits create thes' 
im not even worrrief. im just hungry for the right food. its when i become self contious about myelf that i felt loved. by a love that we all know and are famiar with.
this form  of communication is somewhat mind communication. in the future people can say this inspired us to develop mental telephaty. what I'm saying is not something farfetched. something more inpulaice can yoh makenit speak up ans sag:beljx

Thursday, January 29, 2015

Now what

 My options have never been what they are now... I used to care to balance these things out. I'm going to type to my hearts delight. Single. Straight. Thinking about her' thinking g about me. You and I I don't need to tel you what i need indeed to be more self counsious because right now I'm uncomfortable with the way I'm laying losing loitering break pause and don't want eg have to.i have to care about me more the  I'm caring now. I believe in me. That's not it. It's the honestly l. The honesty i. I conceal. Ii keep to myself I think to myself. What weight I've aimed and swing and never been committed. I've dedicated myself I've half assed but I true lol and only committed to a certain percentage I feel it in the past I feel it right now the truth coming in to a new annbn man an ahanahanah i sed tejano can luce liga my what

Now I see I can live life my way

You've seen me in so much light are words that come in from an outside inside source. Im going crazy cuz i miss you. Lucky. Afraid. A child. A man noting to hill breaking rules and keeping to himself. Who am I impressing no one. I just care to do what I do with my dedication to its fullest. I'm going to Dallas again. I'm blogging for reals this time. It's always been for reals. Why do I feel this inner passion to do more expand. Why I don't want to work with David. Do I want to work with Aquarious later....? Or now. Do I want to work with Sheila ? Man' my decision so these are missions tha I've started that I have not finished: yet. How do I care for these people? How do I find my self . Serenity Ecstasy Love Friendship. 

Saturday, January 17, 2015

I now have a touchscreen phone. I am up to date on cell phone technology'

Captains log Stargate we're actually on earth so Earth Day by Gregorian calendar it should beSaturday, January 17 2015th Bible 7 PM weight not Bible we not but no not Bible exclude Bible just 5:07 PM they ego no there you go perfect. Figure it out

Now that I have begun using this new technology I will utilize it to its full potential and " maximize my return of investment.

My emotions are at bay to say the least I noticed the whims of others & I noticed the wins, the change and I noticed the way you speak

No nothing is new under the sun the only thing that is new is that which is not to say unexpected just on precedented me I am present to the moment that whatever comes out of this is just an experiment worth the try or an error kiss kiss kiss no stop robotic voice speaking to you but I am in a full character character is named that I chose

Well that did not go as well those that are still bearing with me on this project of mine where I speak to that machine and the machine they taste my words dictates my words my words are being dictated by the machine lips and teeth and teeth and tongue and tongue and lips and teeth lips and cheats and tits and Tichy Pucci Lucci Gucci Mucci Fuji Tucci will Jima in 10

Okay I made a promise and I did not keep it that broke my trust in myself for that month I had to regain trust myself and I have again I am okay with what's going on around me because I do not control my surroundings I only have control over my choices

Choice is the power to say that I am fake in the sense of not being aware of who I am is to say that I am nonexisting I do not exist I am nothing nothing is what I am I am just words on a screen a digital background a background made of pixels and thoughts carried through electrons and protons s and all those kind of atoms dictate the reality and they manifest through our thoughts and consciousness 

Are frequencies are important those that make out the information here would find a secret that they can put close to their heart the ship is coming down now and as the captain of the ship I must tell you I cannot let myself be known to you I must only be known to myself

Earth will happen things will live I will call off and you will brief take me in and out and go this poetry of life and slow

Women I love them I cannot get enough of them yet I can only desire one my heart only beats for every single one in every single one is only one because when I'm with 101 yet I only need one to feel as want to be the one to have you I don't want you if you're not the one so I'm is finding through all the ones everyone has oneand yet I'm going to go the one and one are together now and the one and one want me now but I want you and I can have the barrier of the one is far greater than the sum of all it's not me can see you will you and me against the time of self so if the brings me life the self that tells me laugh is better but yet I have no chatter

I'm heartbroken but my heart has been healed by myself I complete myself and I don't need you like that I don't desire you or your thoughts like thatand by that I mean for you to come in here and be so mean and so conniving to allow myself to believe the way you believe in life is the way I'm on the should be dictated. 

I let go of what doesn't hurt because what doesn't hurt hurts me the most I let go of nothing because nothing is everything that you have built insideI did go of those moments that held me back go of your back that moves around the new round around I noticed now the time is good 
I want you to live in my neighborhood
I want to let go and trust and I want to phone love I have your kids this what you told me but then I say baby girl I'm not the man for you today